k..i sat infront of the pathetic white screen...for almost an hour...thinkin of wat to write...and yea...i got no clue....shud i write how i feel??? or whats goin on in my life?? well bout how i feel... i really do not know how to put it down in words... jus know.. if i could feel any worse...i would be dead...

was told i needed a change...lookin at myself...ya i do need one...tryin to change but as usual..come up short again...

tomoro...will be attending the SASA interview...i do not even know why i even bother goin...all the letters i've been getting either begins with ''sorry to inform you'' or '' first and foremost would like to thank you for applying .... but sorry'' anyway i guess i'll give it a shot...

got back some results today... guess wat!! more of the same rubbish...urgh...scrapping thin-low A2 for most of stuff... though i dun quite believe in luck...but maybe without it.... could have screwed up big time for this one...not that i haven....


its jus has been an AMAZING week... ppl say when you are right at the very bottom...the only way is up... but have they ever thought that the hole could actually go deeper? at times like this u jus wish you would continue sleepin and jus wont wake up...

zzz....

i've always been the loser in everythin...when will it end?? sigh..why do i even bother?