the heartaches continue....sigh....

where do i begin?? how i wished my life had a pause button or even a rewind button...i can do wit a nice break from this restless world... a second go at life would be good too....like i said... how i wished... oh well... i wished you knew...

jus an old photo i found..lol...(wats vanod doin behind there??)

purple's mine...
pink's vanods..
gold's wee's..


a pick from eigen's dinner...
*the guy is chee yip* ^^

why do always rubbish happen to me?? Here's the thing... water bottles and hand phones never go together... trust me!! they are a bad combination... or maybe its jus me being an idiot... i cracked my phone's screen... i threw my bottle on my bed....and of all places...it had to land on my ding dong phone...sigh... next thing i knew...there was a nice crystal flower on my phone's screen sigh...

Just couple days back... some monkey took my watch... made me drive back to school and look for it...waste my time and petrol ony... made me feel like a donkey la...crack my phone's screen and lose my watch in the same week...sigh...

Tried the new futsal place at ou on sunday...''Padang''.. not a fan of the turf though...those pesky lil rubbery black stuff...real irritating when they get into your shoes...and surprisingly its quite slippery...quite on the expensive side also...the guy was nice to charge us the non-peak price... oh YA and even the guy hu runs the place knows im colourblind... * thx wee!!* is it that interesting to know sumone hu sees colour a LIL different??? i asked for gathorade orange and the guy gave me lemon... i guess he thought colourblind ppl couldn read as well...sigh....playing football on friday and badminton on saturday doesn really leave you with much energy left on sunday...haha...was pretty pooped even b4 playin futsal...

*Padang*

anyway the highlight of the day has got to be wen Jien Eu, entered the FEMALES SHOWER!! hahaha...used to think he was gay...but lil did i know that he was actually a Perv!!!!! hahaha...anyhow...we are all still proud of him as he finally became a man... go jE!!

didnt know sumone was takin a picture..hahhaha

The FEMALE SHOWERS!!!
(Jien Eu's hideout!! hahahaha)

see... it clearly said FEMALE SHOWERS!!

Shrek M&m..haha..see the lil yellow one with green spots...cool eh..hahahaha

anyway dun feel like writting anymore... real bummer mood sigh...when will it all be clear again?!?

Sheer talent...

how on earth they get so good?

someday i shall play like him...
sigh...hu am i kiddin..

crap his an arsenal fan...sigh

toooooo good....

absolutely perfect swing...




for a person who makes 100 million a year...
he really does not need to play anymore...



his kids name is also alex!!Hahaha

Maybe someday i'll be half as good as they are...*dreams* ahahahaha

a rare star...

jus gonna drop a short post...real poop-ed...

Today was a day of total waiting... waited from 1-5 for my interview... was the second last person in my session...sad right...sigh...

the interview was interesting...the interviewers were actually really friendly and cheerful...never a dull moment in the room...they asked all sorts of question according to my application form...from prefect..to st.john and to badminton.. ( where a lil screw up happened) sigh... i guess it was my fault... so bro... sorry man...
My session was actually really short...to me that is...i didn time it...but it felt really short...lolz...is tat a good or bad thing? well i'll find out real soon i guess...anyhow...im prepared that i'll fail...lolz...

when to dinner at Delicious for gen's Bday... had a cheeseburger... not bad...funny thing was we had to walk all the way up to chilis to check the score for man utd VS everton... really lost my appetite when wee came back with the news that they were still drawing 0-0 with 10 min left... suddenly an ecstatic jien eu came back... piercing the air with his fingers... to my absolute relief.. vidic dragged man utd out of the grave... 1-0..phew...through out the couple of hours we sat at delicious.. chee yip and su wen were in their own world...they talked talked talked and talked to themselves....go chee yip!! hahaha




actually, this post is dedicated to sumone special...
sumone hu's helpin me change...
and 've always been there...
i really am grateful for everything you've done...
i know i aint the easiest person to deal with...
but thank God for your patience....
i'll give it my all...
but still i hope that i wont disappoint....
with this...
i wish to say a great big THANK YOU!!!

k..i sat infront of the pathetic white screen...for almost an hour...thinkin of wat to write...and yea...i got no clue....shud i write how i feel??? or whats goin on in my life?? well bout how i feel... i really do not know how to put it down in words... jus know.. if i could feel any worse...i would be dead...

was told i needed a change...lookin at myself...ya i do need one...tryin to change but as usual..come up short again...

tomoro...will be attending the SASA interview...i do not even know why i even bother goin...all the letters i've been getting either begins with ''sorry to inform you'' or '' first and foremost would like to thank you for applying .... but sorry'' anyway i guess i'll give it a shot...

got back some results today... guess wat!! more of the same rubbish...urgh...scrapping thin-low A2 for most of stuff... though i dun quite believe in luck...but maybe without it.... could have screwed up big time for this one...not that i haven....


its jus has been an AMAZING week... ppl say when you are right at the very bottom...the only way is up... but have they ever thought that the hole could actually go deeper? at times like this u jus wish you would continue sleepin and jus wont wake up...

zzz....

i've always been the loser in everythin...when will it end?? sigh..why do i even bother?

have u ever had that feeling where you have a bar of chocolate in your hand and you really wanna know how it tastes like, but you're just reluctant to rip open the packaging and sink your teeth into the sweet brown candy as its the only one in the world? thats exactly how i feel now. sigh... the most i dare to is to unpack the chocolate and take a look and that wrap it back up and store it in the fridge once again. i guess i'll be doin that till it shows a positive sign that i have more of it...but i still wan to be the only one in the world to have it...thats wat makes it special...all so special...so for now i guess, i'll hang on to wat've got.

pic was stolen from wee's page,
too lazy to take of the choc...though i haven eaten
my bunny choc yet....

''WAH KETUA DISIPLIN, SEMANGAT-NYA!!'' those were the words from a pretty old guy who handed me my cert for being a discipline officer. well...honestly.. i expected everyone to laugh wen they announced the words ketua disiplin and alex kang in the same sentence.... by then the hall was quite quiet...but wanna say thx to eunice hu cheered...lolz... anyway the guy hu handed me the cert laughed...sigh...

was quite a wasted day in school...would have rather stayed home and sleep....if only i could....
spend the day chattin with everyone in class and listenin to music... like in every fairytale...there's always a point in the story where the story turns sour...thats wen pn shaja came in to class... my ear plugs were still in stuck in my ears wen the 7 footer stood at the door of the class.. though i managed to pull em out jus in time...so did weeeeee.... it was SOOOOOOOOOOO close....wasnt really chang fu's day though....his phone got confiscated by teacher...sry man...got back our eng essay marks... i ony got 65...sniff sniff...she said my story wasn dramatic enough and apparently i didnt clearly explain how i got closer to my friend....

1) The story is about a tsunami... isn't having a 100 foot wave in your face dramatic enough??
Having destroyed the town and robbing the lifes of many dramatic enuff???

2) MY fewns name is michael...HIS A GUY!! how am i suppose to get closer to him?!?! am i suppose to be gay or sumthin now?!?!?! sittin by the beach together enjoyin the scenery is already pushin the limit....

well expected my first essay to be rubbish..didnt really have much time on it...

i guess thats all for now...got to go for tuition now...i'll be back pretty soon....i hope..

is life a chore? or is it jus a dream? is it that complicated or is it actually really simple?? is wat we do that make it so complex?? one day i hope to find the answers....

fell in love with this song... I'D WAIT FOR LIFE

There's a place we used to be
There's a face that I used to see
There's a picture with you by my side
There's a moment that I want to find.

I don't know where to start
Or how to begin
But I know I love you still.

If you ever turn away
If you ever change your mind
If the road ahead becomes too hard to climb
If there's something in your heart
that tells you to stop
Oh to hold you close tonight
I'd wait for life.

There's a voice shouting inside my head
There's a space on your side of the bed
There's a hope everytime there's a sound
There's a silence that's playing too loud

I don't know how you are
Or how you may be
But I know I love you still.

If you ever turn away
If you ever change your mind
If the road ahead becomes too hard to climb
If there's something in your heart
that tells you to stop
Oh to hold you close tonight
I'd wait for life.

If I close my eyes
I'll dream a little deeper baby
'Cause you are always on my mind
Yeah you are always on my mind
For life.

If there's something in your heart
that tells you to stop
Oh to hold you close tonight
I'd wait for life.

moments you cherish.......

finally trials comes to a close.. the 3 weeks ordeal finally ends tomoro...though for me it ended last fri..lolz... maths 1 and est....ah phooiiiei....lolz...

ah well wat the hack...im feeling horrible now... dead drop horrible...and got no idea wat to do nor wat can i do...sigh...

wen to watch rush hour 3 wit 'gen and vanod... was pretty cool as we had mini chris' by our side...lolz...met up wit chee boi at williams after that... tried the roast beef...gives you the feeling of walkin on clouds...lolz...


puffy white stuff are always nicer wen viewed from above...
love to sit by the window seat wen flying..though kinda mafan walkin in and out..but wen evening comes...the pink clouds are jus amazing...i can jus stare at em until i go blind..lolz...

cant find pink clouds...sniff..

*.......*

these are the times you cherish for life...no matter how short or how long of a period...its jus sumthing that will stay wit you forever..vividly it'll play over and over in your mind...well i've cut down on my crap and learnin more bout life...maybe im jus not ready for the big world am i? got to say...jus very recently i've learned that even without saying a word, a moment can be really special.

alright...so on sunday wen to kim's place for her Bday...

today's gen's BDay so...happy Bday bro!..